Like the Beginning

Its raining heavily outside,droplets of raindrops landed outside my clear window ,just like tears flowing down soaking my dry lips and suffering the pain inside my heart all alone.Dear God,where have you been when i need you most.
I aint pretty like other girls out there,sometimes i envy them and sometimes i dont.I reflect myself in the mirror,although it was just a normal face of mine,behind of it leaves a thousand scars.Gosh,Im still sick for the past 2 days till now,i dont have the mood to study neither. all i could do was lying down on my bed either i rest and sleep or daydream.Im afraid im way behind,i hate the feeling of being left out,just like how i was treated in my childhood.